aNgeL Of Mine

hmm..sudahhh lamaaa g berkunjung k fs..hoho..sudah terlupakan euy gr2 fb..hoho…

gyaaaa…problem this time is about choosing the right things for my future…

should i continue my study to bachelor as now im almost finish my advanced diploma of hospitality and if im continuing to degree..it will take another 2.5 years more…1,5 years for the theory and the other 1 year for intership…

it’s not too bad..butt..the thing is..do i really want to study the hospitality more?do i think i will get more knowledge in there?or will it be just another wasting my dad’s money thing?haishhh…i think the last answer is the right for me..

my dad told me..that’s all is my choice..im the one who should decided what i wanna be..he will be happy enough to support me in anyways i choose…but then he asked me..will i get more knowledge if im continuing to degree?will i be happy to study it all and in the end it will be usefull for me?then i just need one second to answer that..and my answer is NO..i dont think i will get more knowledge in degree later…becoz what i think..advanced diploma for hospitality is enough…hospitality is not about how high ur education is..becoz it all needs training..and people who are not study hospitality could work at the hospitality area also (in some cases)..and also i think the most important thing to have when work in the hospitality area is the “attitude” of the person..that’s they said about hospitality…n i absolutely agree with that perception..(no offense..thats what i think..=))

thats why i dun want to continue to degree..but in the other hand what makes me think to continue that is most of my friends is going to continue there..then also im not getting proper job until now..if i dont get my proper job until then i just afraid that i feel regret im not doing degree and will wasting my time to hanging around finding a job n couldnt find it in the end..

buttt wake uppp…why i become so pesimistic..there’s nothing impossible in this world,right..???and in my case is just a little problem that’s not neccessary to put the word imposible into it..coz its just about..

“willingness” of trying hard to find it…and its about to take risks into my life…i should do what i really wanted to do..if i think its not important for me to take the degree..then why i need to feel regret if im the one who doesnt have that bachelor title in the end?what’s wrong with it??this is my lifeee…

thats not about people’s life..everyone has their own choice about what they’re gonna do with their life..if most of my friends choose to continue it and i choose to find a job either in patisserie area (what i really wanted to) or just in the hotel area insteAd of studying in degree..thennn that’s it..nothing needs to regret…believe in myself…!!i got my own life..and also great great parents that will always support me in every way i do..they never ever push me to do what i dont like..they always let me choose my own life..then what im afraid of…???

im a lil silly girl..=P

even i’ve wrote this blog…but its back to “old” me…

im the one who can’t decided things easily..especially when i got more than one choice..like this for example..hehehe..sometimes get choices is good for some people but sometimes it doesnt work for people like me..but still i prefer to have choices than not..=P

n in the end i still in the dilemma situation…

hope i got all the answer soon…=)

hohoho…it was a tiramisu cake that i made for my beloved dad..

he cant taste it…i just send the picture with me and my brother hold that cake and send him a bday card with that picture..hoho..

honetsly that was my first time gave something to my dad..hoho..becoz in my family bday is nothing..we usually just eat together to celebrate it..no present or something sweet like that..hoho..so i thought i want to make him happy at least once..so i made that..hoho..

also thats the first time i made tiramisu..i found the recipe from the inet..n the cake taste nice but a bit too sweet..hohoho..will make it better next time..=P

Happy bday my beloved dad..=)

this the second cake i made..hoho..opera cake..=P

not really good looking but im pretty sure it taste really yummy..hoho..coz myself likes that opera cake..hehehe..

i made this cake for my older brother bday..too many preparations to make that cake..but well it turns really nice..hoho..not put all my heart into it..thats why not finish it with the nice decoration with the words happy bday koko..like the one i did for my dad..but at least i made it special for him..wakakaka…=P

hohoho..the third cake..Mud cake..=P

i was made this cake for my manager laura..hohoho..

the original purpose of this cake is to win her heart..so she will likes me and will give me more hours for my roster..becoz im still casual and every week i dont get the same hours like the part time got..hoho..so this is one of my friend idea..use my skill to get other people heart..wakaka..

n well i did it..wakaka…she looks very happy on that time..coz she said no one even remember her bday..n she didnt receive anything until the surprise that i was made with my fren for her..hoho..glad to hear that…

really busy day when i made this cake..so many assignments need to be done at that time..thats why i choose mud cake..really easy to make n so yummy as well..=P

hohoho..cheesecake..yumm..yummm…

finally i can make a cheesecake as one of my dream cake..wakakaka…

sounds silly..but thats the truth..hoho..my school recipe for the cold cheesecake is crap..really crap..doenst taste nice at all..make once in school n i swear that wont make it anymore..n the bake cheesecake that i made in school..becoz of the teacher forgot to put the sign then other teacher take it before my class try how the taste of cheesecake that we were made that time..

so i dont hev any recipe for it..so useless y my school..sometimes it was..wakaka..so i search for any good recipe with the good review on it..n finally i found this one..so easy to make n it turns so good..especially the base..i really like it..hoho…

maybe people who doesnt like sour taste will feel that this cheesecake a bit sour..but for me its alright.hoho..but thanks for the suggestion..will reduce the lemon..hehehe..n also i want to try to make the whitechocolate cheesecake..sound nice yea..wakaka..=P so just wait for my next blog..hehe..

btw this cake i made for “sugar” ray..one of my friends..hehehe…and it was vk’s writing..she came to help me that time..=P

thats all for now..hehehe..

i should practice more and more…coz practice makes perfect..=)

donno what i really want…

i asked u to stay but i dont want to be with u…

am i egoist to be like that?…

cant really let you go…

but now its ur decision…

i dont want to ask anymore…

in fact that im glad now that u still care about me and still support me in everything i do…=P

i learned many things from you..hehe..

im the one who always think from the positive way..n i know he do think the same way as mine…

so whatever the ending is…im glad that i meet you..=)

hmm..pissed off.hohoho..

its not a big shitty thing that happened to me..but just get me a bit pissed off about it..hoho..

young lady customer come with the basket with her things in it..

she didnt unpack the things into my register..

n im fine with it..thats lazy customer always do..so dont bother with it…

then..i finish scanned everything..i ask her to put back the basket just under my register..i said to her nicely and politely (i thought its already polite n nice) “do u mind to put the basket back just down there”..

then suddenly she looked at me with her pissed off face said “please..!!!!!”

aiyooooooo…how come she dare to did that…she’s the one who supposed to put the basket back, i just ask her politely with my version..is it not enough polite for the ausiiiii people????hehehe…

i am the one who supposed to get pissed off about what she did to me..not her..

fu**ing a*si people..hehehehe…huhhhhh..

actually im not that angry..but i just cant do anything that time…

pretend that nothing happened..still put smile on my face n serve the other customer likes usual..but in my heart i really get pissed off..wakakakaka..but i always try to tell myself to be more patient when get a shitty customer like that..wakaka..

she’s no one..!!! im not supposed to let my energy off to get angry with her…she will just ruined my good day if im doing that..wakakaka..

let her do anything what she want to do..and forgot about everything thats the best way..hoho..

thats why i write this down..not becoz i get very angry becoz of that very small things…im not like that..i just want to write down what my feeling is..so i can forget it now…wakaka…=P

bye shitty arrogant lady..hoho..wanna punch ur face and kick ur ass at first..but now no point doing that..coz actually wanna say thx to you..

so next time there wont be another shitty customer like you who looked at me with the same that u did..coz i will say pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee everytime from now on, if that word can make all u people happy..wakakaka..=P

*this already happened to me before,but different case n was ok,even get a bit angry, but now it happened again..ckckck..i write this down so there wont be any story about this same shit anymore”…*

peace..^^v

these are for steps every business relationship goes through as it becomes established..hohoho…

awareness–> first step..its easy to reach..your partner has an idea who
you are..they know u exist..they are not confident in you..
you do not have any relationship..

knowledge–> know more about you..they know more detail aboutwhat you do..and how do you do..they will consider you..

Liking–> relation has grown..if they have to chose between you and another they will most likely choose you..this is because the relationship has been built up..they enjoy doing with you..

Trusting–> hardest to achieve..in many business relationship this wont be achieved..
hmmm…trusting..the hardest part to achieve..

i just stop until the liking step..n decided not to continue..
ok will do my business operation asgn now..wakakaka..=P

hmm..never thought this will be so complicated…hehehe…

but love is simple..hehehe..

its like to go for battle in war…u want to take a risk or not…

u will be stay alive or die..thats all about it..if u stay alive..u will be have a story to be told..if u die..then there’s no more story..or will be the end of the story..hohoho..

and i think love is just like that…when u want to take a risk to feel the hurt..then just go for it…u never know what will u have a hurt or a hepi ending..hohohoho..no one knows about it..but urself will…

so which one will i choose?????

still cant decide it..lets just the times answer it…

coz i always believe..that everything always happen for a reason…

n God will never let me down and be sad..cos He loves me too much..wakakaka..=P

that’s good point when my friend told to my other friends bout this life..
he said to her..why u just want to be OK if u have a chance to be better..hoho..
when he said to my friends like that..
i just realised that i just the same with my friends that the person who just want to be OK..though i could be better if i want..hoho..

my friend reason to be just OK is becoz she think that she can live with her condition now..she said she’s a kind of person who dont have passion and ambition…
she’s already satisfied with her life now..hehehe…she has a good salary…boyfriend to share with..lots of friends..so she doesnt need anything..hoho..
that’s why..she’s happy enough with OK..hehehe…

but my friend who asked to her like that is the person who really likes chalenging new things…he likes to learn new thing..something different from other..update about what is on in nowadays..always thinking about the future..likes how to make good money until you get older..hoho..and somthing like that..
he’s a kind of smart boy i recond..he can learn quick if he want..he said to me…
you can do anything u want..u can get the job u want…if you would like to..its not hard if you want to try..hohoho…

hmmm….this guy just make me realised that what i really want i can get it if i would like to…if im willing to…if i want to do something about it…
n sure until now..i just put half of my heart to find the pastry job..
becoz i always think like my friend who just want to be OK..i already satisfied with my job now..though its not good as my friend salary..but still good for me..i already can get what i want..but…am i happy with just to be OK???with just to be like this?
or i want more..i want to do what i really want to…which is to become a pastry chef…to learn new things and hev the experience of what i already learned from my school…hohoho…

let see what is my next step..hohoho..=P

ahhhhh nyong binyung..huohohohoho…

aduh2..bener2 g tau loh about my future enk e gimana n gmn..huhuhu..
mau lanjut advanced diploma muales pol rasae..arghhhh….
ak pengen ngeply PR by next year…tpi mungkin baru bisa dpt TR dolo..huhu..
trus baru mikir d mau gmn tpi at least klo ngeply buat PR harus stay dolo khan disini..
g mslh seh stay disini..fun2 aja kok disini n betah2 jg ak..

tpi loh ak jg pengen bachelor..
tpi bingung mu ngambik bachelor apa..
bachelor of hospitality..g penting d itu kyknya…
better ak ngambil bachelor of apa gitu..haishhhh bingung2…
sempat terlintas d bayangan ku buat ngambil accounting..wakaka..
but
what accounting???am i crazy?hehehehe…can i stand for another 3 years
to doing it?of course i could if i really want to..but..hmmmm…need to
think twice before i make my decision..hehehehe…

trus apa bener ak mau ngeply PR ae buat disini…
ini papa tiba2 menyarankan buat bachelor di china ae…
aduhhh mau2 ae seh ak org yg suka challenge..so kemana pun ok ak..
tpi mikir lgi..
wehhhh ke china…skolah bahasa ae lah itu..
lgian d melb ak udah terbilang betah lah..get used to live in here..
disini ak merasa enk pol hidupku..
kerja berkecukupan yg bisa membiayai shopping ku..huahahahaha..
pikiran egois yg g mature blas yoh..
tpi emg gitu pkiranku..

yak pa ni..
bener2 g tau arah tujuan hidupku skr ini gmn ntik e…huhuhu..
brencana pergi k counsellor ak..hehehehe..
mau tny2..hehehehe…

haish…futureku loh ini..
yak pa ni..
bingung entah apa yg harus kulakukan skr..
d sisi laen..
ak bener2 mau cr kerjaan d pastry area..bener2 pengen…
ak g perlu jdi well known chef..tpi ak mau dpt feel to be a pastry chef..
ak mau punya experience in it…
itu seh yg ak mau skr..
tpi y gitu..nyari kerjoan buat jadi pastry chef..it’s not that easy…gyaaaaaaaa……

ce me pan ini???
anyone have any suggestion about what should i do next?hehehehehe…

aduhhhh cepat ato lambat ak harus bener2 make decision for my future..
ak bener2 harus menetapkan hatiku tentng apa seng bener2 ak mau…
ak mau skolah sampe bachelor skr..
itu point e pkok e..to make both of my parents proud n hepi thats what i aim for…
n
ak jg g mau org2 laen beranggapan ak cuma skolah buat buang2 uang..ak g
mau org laen beranggapan ak kyk cewek2 males seng g niat skolah…
but sejak kapan ak pusing ttg apa yg org laen bakal pikirkan ttg ak??
is
that really important for my life?hehehe..maybe its not important but
still what people thinking of you might have impacts for your
life..hehehehe…^^

sick of being single..huahahahaha..
am i sound really desperate?hehehe..
ndak loh..g se desperate gitu lah..hohoho..
cuma khan ungkapane lebih mantep gitu loh..wakakakaka…

ahhhhhhh…God send me a good guy soonnnnn dunk..hehehe..
wanna colour my life again..hohoho…
though its already colourfull but there’s just a little pink and red colour in my life..
that’s why i asked you to give me the colour of love..huahahahahaha….=)

i’m waiting lohhh God..hehehe…
as u promises to me the other day..hohoho..

wanna hear from yOu soon…hehehehe…

best regards,

your lovely daughter who need love..^^

OIShiiiii Fruit Cake..^^ slurppp…=P

hoho…tuh fruit cake buat e gr2 nganggur..
lgi pengen makan fruit cake..hohoho..
dolo pernah buat d indo..
entah apa yg salah..
jadie g enk…
sweet short pastry nya alias base nya g enk..
coz rasae soale salah pake butter wkt d indo itu..hohohoho..
nahhhh..kmrn chat ama si ute..
dia dolo khan tk cobai fruit tart ku itu wkt d indo…trus kmrn dia dpt kiriman fruit tart gitu…
dia blg sama ak..uenk pol fruit tart e lebih enk dr punyaku ktne..hohohoho…
ndak terima begitu saja..maka nya kbuktikan membuatnya..hohohoho…
bertepatan dengan kelas coffee shop planning yg mengharuskan untuk bawa product yg kita buat gitu..
y udah akhirnya ku memutuskan untuk membuat fruit cake ae..
gmpg soale..hohoho…
pagi2 sblm skolah ku bake..
trus kucoba…
gyaaaaaaaaaa…oishiiiii…uedun base e..
sama persis sama yg biasa ku buat d skolah..hohoho..
akhire finally i can make it better than before..
that’s the purpose of practising ,right?hehehe…
tunggu ak membuatnya d indo y ute..hoho..

The GoOdbyE MacArOon…=P

hehehehe…ini macaroon khusus kubuatkan buat naomi…
seorang  teman yg forgud untuk melanjutkan study nya k swiss..hohohoho..
nao org yg agak gila..wakaka..maaf loh mi..hoho..bkn maksud..
cuma cara berpikir nao aga aneh emg..
g prnah serius blas..hohoho..orang yg aneh emg..hohoho..
justru karena itu yg membuat kita akan rindu padanya..hehehe..=P
well..for myself i dont like macaroon..
i dont know why some people really like it..it just too sweet for me..hehehe..

kata si nao macaroon nya ok..
‘ok’ for me means the food not really good..wakaka..
emg seh…ak sendiri nyobain nya..
berasa kurang euy..hohoho..
tpi gpp lah..
at least i already fulfill my promise to nao..
although it wasn’t taste the same as she want..
but the feeling when she eat it was different..coz i made it with all my heart..huahahaha..=P
GoodBye..Nao..hohO..
wish u luck with ur new school and frends..^^
we’ll miss yOu…